I recall those days when I was there, being around You. For sure you know how much I always miss You. Lots of cute, quick moments were recorded in my heart; God-willing they will stay in my heart forever: moments when I nervously kissed Your hand, held Your staff and turban, moments when You looked me in the eyes and asked how I was doing, moments when I could only peep by Your door, moments when I saw You passing by without able to say a word.
Only God knows if I could ever have such moments again with You. Or perhaps, He would be generous enough to surprise me with even more beautiful moments with You. Whatever it is, I know that God has created hope for a good use. So, by God's Will, I shall never lose hope of sharing beautiful moments with You again.
I remember the last two days I was around, I couldn't stop crying. In almost every place I went to, every step I took, my eyes were wet not wanting to be separated from You again. I went to the honourable place where Your lovely wife rested a few times and poured out for hours. Although I had never seen her physically, she is a mother to me; just like how You are a father to me. I love You both and wish not to be brought away from You.
By God's Grace, a beautiful gift unexpectedly stood right at my door during our last meeting before I left. While I was sitting at the back of the crowd inside Your room, crying and crying while trying my best to hide my tears from You, You out of the blue told me a message I had never expected before -- that I would be married soon. Not knowing how to react, I just smiled and whispered the words 'thank you'.
Thinking that was it, I continued crying and trying to hide my tears behind others' backs. And somehow, like the finale of the day, an opportunity arose and You asked me for my name. I was happy enough noticing Your unique reaction upon hearing my name.
I thought again that was it, but that wasn't it. By God's Grace, You called me to come to You. Moving my legs between the crowd, I approached You and just stood there, in front of You, not knowing what to do. I was stunt. Thank God, Your right hand person advised me to take and kiss Your hand, and so I did. You then put Your hand on my head; I didn't know what to think at that moment. I just knew that I wished time freeze and that moment last forever.
Nevertheless, as there is a beginning to everything in the realm of creations, there is also an end to it. The moment I noticed Your hand was no longer on my head, I dared myself to kiss one of Your feet which was untouched, right in front of me. Although I wasn't sure if I did the right thing, no words could describe what I exactly felt at the moment -- a mixture of joy, overwhelming, nervousness, sadness, and so on.
Those beautiful moments ended. You went to Your room for a rest and left us to carry our goodies as take-home gifts from You and Your family. A variety of fruits were laid fresh on the table for us to pack, but none of them seemed to matter. All I could think of was You, how happy I was for all the cute moments with You, and how sad I was for leaving You despite knowing You will always be there for me.
If God wills, I hope to see You again because I really love You.
-In memory of Lefke, Cyprus, November 2007-
Posted at 06:24 pm by
Cygnus
