Days have been really amazing indeed. Despite not knowing if I will be able to visit Mawlana again in Cyprus, not knowing if the date I propose to fly home will be approved by the deputy of my region, and not knowing if the guy I emailed my feeling of love to has read my mail, everything has been great!
I spent two days with the German lady who can speak with the nature and who is also a spiritual healer. Somehow I knew Mawlana sent her to me because on our appointment day, she called me by my first name while I have never mentioned it to her. I introduced myself with my pet name, the name almost everyone knows me with. However, I did introduced myself to Mawlana with my first name. That is why I was so surprised when she called me by that name and immediately concluded that it was a divine sign.
On the first day we spent together, she took me to two quaries in a nature reserve area. She trained me to feel the energy in different spots around the quaries. She pointed out hundred-years old stones and formations, in which spirits live. She brought me to her temple, which is an old altar-like stone. It was the first time in my life I know the difference between female and male energy. It was the first time I knew how to bring out my spiritual potential -- through meditation.
From the nature's painting on the rock formations, I learnt to see the manifestation of the spirits that live and guard the places. The entity of the spirits is something that human cannot understand; therefore, we cannot quantify. Nevertheless, spiritual beings sometimes show themselves to human beings in forms our minds can understand, e.g. a bear, a knight, a lady, two persons sitting face-to-face on their knees establishing spiritual connection, etc.
I learnt how all the four elements are manifested in creations, be it human, animal, plant, rock, etc. Each element has different kind of energy and delivers different characters too. She told me why we may not be able to feel the energy of certain places or people: it may be because our dominating element is the same as the element of the place/people we are trying to relate to.
It was a beautiful day indeed! We saw a butterfly fluttering on the surface of the water, an eagle flying low capturing a fish from the water, an army of ants carrying pollens with their jaws that we thought it was some animals we had never seen before. We did some chanting together. I taught her how to chant our sufi remembrance. We chanted in the open air, inviting the nature to chant with us, singing the praises of God and the Beloved Prophet. I was so happy because I knew all the spirits are singing joyfully and moving together in vibration of love with us. I saw with my opened eyes huge amount of light floating in the atmosphere above the quary. Beautiful! I ended the chanting session by asking her to say some prayers and she sung her prayers in three different languages: Sanskrit, German and Tibetan. The last one she sung was a healing prayer.
I showed her Mawlana's photograph and she meditated on his energy. She said Mawlana is very pure and has female energy. As I've already learnt how female energy feels, I knew that it was loving and subtle, creeping slowly from every direction, just like Mawlana's love I receive from creatures/creations whom he has sent on my way... from every direction. SubhanAllah!
Three days after, I met up with her again to take her to the tomb of the saint I usually visit every Thursday before my spiritual congregation of love. She told me she felt the energy of this place attracting her for the past one year, but she did not know if she could just come to the place. Apparently, I was her door to the saint. Alhamdulillah!
I pointed out to her the photo of the saint and she told me how the saint and Mawlana have a resemblence. She taught me that such resemblence can only result from love. Indeed, Mawlana's love to this saint is unimaginably great and deep! I cannot tell how he loves this saint, but I've requested Mawlana to teach me how much he loves this saint, to give me glimpses of how he feels towards this saint.
She has really fallen in love with the energy of the saint that she asked me if she could come again alone next time. Then I said 'of course!' We separated. I made my way to my favourite river, to catch maghrib prayer at the mosque there. At the same time I want to see and feel the energy of the old tree around the area, which the German lady has told me about. She, on the other hand, went back home to harness the energy she just received from the saint.
I always wonder why I love to sit by this river so much. That day I knew the answer. She told me earlier that the river is the root cakra (energy point) of the city. The quary we visited three days before was the heart cakra. She mentioned the locations of the five other cakras of the city to me as well. This new knowledge has really amused me.
Being around her has somewhat built my confidence in the spiritual potential and purpose God has assigned me. All this while I've been pushing it away, saying that it's just a delusion, for afraid of pride. But now, I realise the importance of harnessing it. I have begun to accept the possibility that a reading of my destiny, saying that i was the leader of such and such might be true. Plus with the fact that some companions had seen me with Mawlana, or seen my face when making connection with Mawlana... plus last night, the representative of Mawlana in the city, showing me much respect, telling me that I am qualified to lead the women, has given me another boost. I'm rather afraid if my pride shoots up.
Perhaps, all these people sent to me are meant to give me a confidence-boost: the Italian lady, the Holland lady, the two German ladies, a few fellow seekers and the representative of Mawlana. I'm really depending on Mawlana to work on me, to keep me humble yet serving my real purpose. That's my only wish in life, to be used by the Divine Hands. What's the meaning of having been created if not useful for the Creator!
We'll see...